It was a good day: worked out, lunch with the girls, DD1 and I made bracelets, then the 3 of us went to see Mr. Magorium.
It's just that, every now and then, I get the thought that the cancer will come back, and I will die. Today's one of the those days. Perhaps because Mr. Magorium deals with death, as does the movie I watched at home while I tidied: Marilyn Hotchkiss' Charm School and Ballroom Dancing.
I believe in God, and i believe in His plan for my life. And if I do die, I know I will go into the arms of Jesus. But, man, I don't want to go any time soon.
That's one of the main differences cancer has made in my life. i deal with the fear of death. Pre-BC, it simply wasn't an issue.
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I finished cancer treatment on October 12, 9 months to the day after I heard those words, "The tumor was cancerous."
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Abbreviations
- BC breast cancer
- BFF best friends forever
- BIL brother-in-law
- CYA cover your posterior
- DD dear daughter
- DH dear husband
- dx diagnosis
- IMHO In My Humble Opinion
- MIL mother-in-law
- onc oncologist
- rads radiation
- rx prescription
- SE side effects
- SIL sister-in-law
- SNB sentinal node biopsy
- tx treatment
Books I've Enjoyed Recently
- The Burglar Who Liked To Quote Kipling, Larence Block
- Big Fish, by I Don't Remember
- Squire, by Tamara Pierce
My New Life Verse
"I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord."
Psalm 118:17
Psalm 118:17
2 comments:
For the record, I don't want you to go anytime soon, either. :) I'm sorry you are facing that fear in a more concrete way than you did before. But hopefully it will help to know that lots of people out there want you to stick around. *hugs*
Can't think of any really eloquent words of wisdom here, so... sorry you had a tough day and hang in there! Do you get Dr. Steven Trammel's daily e-mail devotional from CFBC---even though you have defected?! Today was about "praying through" all of our anxieties and troubles on an daily/hourly basis. Trite, but true.
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